Iron Man: "The universe is too vast for aliens not to exist." Clark Kent: "Absolutely."

My first blog was simply pictures of people with their answers to questions like “Do you believe in true love?” or “Do you believe in aliens?” (According to my survey, people's level of faith was slightly in favor of aliens over true love.)

Then I was advised that my blog should be about me. So I started writing about my search for love and meaning. I created situations specifically for the purpose of blogging. Then stuff happened that was a lot more interesting than the stuff I set up. But that was private. So I tried to set up other stuff to write about.

I asked a speed dating acquaintance, for an interview about her speed dating experiences. She agreed but had to reschedule our chat due to overbooking. Looking for more inspiration, I arranged a morning meeting with my Law of Attraction friend, Cash. He wanted a tall iced decaf. While in line, I forgot what he asked for and got him a venti non-decaf.

“It was meant to be,” he said, when I offered to replace it.

When I first met Cash two years ago, I felt sure that he was a man who got what he wanted.

"How are things going?" I asked.

“I’m getting by," he said. "But sometimes I just want to kill myself.”

I wished I could think of something encouraging to say, but nothing seemed right.

“Why do you think the Law of Attraction isn’t working for you?” I asked.

“Because I’m not getting what I want,” he said.

Cash says he wants to win the lottery but perhaps what he really wants is to feel rich.

Oscar Wilde said, “There are two tragedies in life: one is not getting what one wants and the other is getting it.”

Many people say the anticipation of getting what you want is sweeter than actually getting it. Once you know it’s coming, that might be true. I guess it’s like true love or aliens. Believing in it is almost as exciting as experiencing it. But I think getting it is always better, because then one can allow oneself to want so much more.

Esther Hicks is a channel for Abraham, a group of non-physical entities who present themselves as “infinite knowledge.” Esther channels using clairaudience, which means hearing spiritual beings. Even if you don't believe in spiritual channeling, Abraham's answers to people's questions (through Esther) are intriguing.

On Saturday, I watched a live transmission of Esther’s workshop from Portland on my laptop. Twenty minutes before the workshop, I received a text from Cash, who I met at the last Abraham workshop I attended almost two years ago. I hadn’t seen Cash for almost a year so I invited him to come and watch the workshop with me.

Cash sat on my sofa one minute before the workshop began. He had bleached hair, a warm tan and looked in good spirits. Esther appeared wearing a leopard print sweater, which I thought was a coincidence because I was wearing leopard print boyshorts. After a couple of deep breaths, Esther became Abraham.

“You think you have a finite pile of love or money,” said Abraham, “and you want it to last as long as you do. But it’s everlasting and ever flowing. The more you use it the more it comes.”

“How do I get the big money,” asked the first man in the hot seat.

“By diminishing the bigness of it,” said Abraham. “Accomplishment of a castle or a button is same thing. It depends what you are focused on “

“I really want a sandwich,” said Cash. “No, I don’t. I want to win the lottery.”

“If you can wake up every morning and think the things you want to think,” said Abraham, “nothing can stop you from anything. But if you wake up and your thoughts are contained by what is, you can’t move from where you are.”

“My question is about addiction,” said the next sitter, a pretty blonde with one tattooed bicep.

“100% of your history can serve you,” said Abraham. “If you didn’t know what you don’t want you couldn’t be who you are now. You have to live forever with the fact that when you were born you didn’t have any teeth.”

“That’s a crappy analogy,” said Cash and stuck his middle finger up at the screen.

A cute blonde in a paisley shirt took the seat.

“I went on eharmony, met a man within 2 days and it was the one,” she said.

Cash stuck both his middle fingers up at her on the screen.

“There is not a better search engine than your own vortex,” said Abraham. “You’ve put those desires into the vortex through the living of your life.”

An earnest-looking mother questioned anxiously about her son and ex-husband. Every time she added a question, Cash gave her the finger.

“Bring it to the present tense,” said Abraham. “Find a vibration of appreciation for this person now.”

“I’m so glad my son has a father who adores him,” the woman said. Tears flowed down her face.

“Now she’s happy because that’s real,” said Cash.

“You can change your approach to life today,” said Abraham. “It is as simple as smiling rather than frowning. It is as simple as looking for a reason to feel good.”